Maybe we should start worrying when nothing in fandom surprises us anymore.
This is not a rant~ more like closure~ let's take it from the top.
I joined KT after Jin left so I only knew him from watching old vids - and I didn't find anything special about him and liked him the least so whatever, 'thanks for leaving' was my thought. Now, I don't mind Jin. I don't care for his music or knowing anything about him but, I don't mind hearing my friends fangirl about him.
Then when Koki got fired I cried and internally screamed, 'you frigging idiot. You fool. You're a friggin liar who didn't take us seriously'. But time passed and I'm long over it. I even enjoy looking at his whacky twitter pics~ as a matter of fact just a few days ago, I was checking out his songs on Youtube~ not my cup of tea. I love rock but I like rock with style, with character, with uniqueness. I just saw him and heard rock music. Nothing catchy, but he's still Koki.
Then when Junno left, I was, "oh shit man! I always thought you're that kind of village person~ not too fussy and greedy for the spotlight but how can you even think about giving up KAT-TUN?... I mean, it's KAT-TUN~ but then I guess you want a normal happy life away from people all up in your business".
But then, soon after, the pictures started to show up here and there and at first I was like, "hmmm okay, it's good to see that he's alright. But what happened to him staying out the spotlight?"~ because as we all know, he didn't really give a reason for leaving KT, I just speculated that he wanted to be out of the limelight. But then the pics started to get a bit annoying because really, "you left KT just to pose up in other people's pictures on instagram? Really, boy, what are you up to~ hurry and do something with your life".
So this brings me to today's discovery... announcement of Junno releasing a single and already set up a fan club...
I think if I want to be angry, then it's ok for me to be angry. If folks could be angry at Jin and I could be angry at Koki, then why not Junno? I mean, here I was thinking Mr. Junno-man wanted to stay out of the limelight and enjoy sunny days with his woman~ but instead, he's back in music business... and not only is he back, he's back during KAT-TUN's 'recharge'~ with not just a solo but a FANCLUB~ can I just laugh? How long has he really been planning this?
Yeah, I guess I can be angry BUT! but I'm not.
I'm glad he finally made a move because now we finally FINALLY know why he left KAT-TUN~ it seems like he just really wanted to go on his own. For whatever reason, KT just wasn't working for him and bluntly put, he wanted out to start on his own.
All the more reason to be angry, right?
Now that I have my reason (his reason) - off doing his thing, I can now completely let go of KAT-TUN's Junno. Maybe this is what I needed to see, him completely moving on - so I too can move on. I still follow Koki on twitter and chances are, I'll follow Junno too if he makes an account, but just like Koki (who keeps concerts 20mins from me and I never went), I'm absolutely confident I'll never become a fan of solo!Junno, the way I'm a fan of KAT-TUN!Junno~ even without malice, hate, anger, it just won't happen - because as I've said a million times before, I don't like Jpop, I don't like Johnnys - what I do like is KAT-TUN, KAT-TUN is my exception to every rule.
And it's funny how all week I've been listening to the first Best of KAT-TUN album, the No More Pain album and the Kusabi album~ they are my favourite so I never get tired of them~ but as I listened, I found myself thinking, "I wish 3nin KAT-TUN had left us an album - something like a teaser until they return".
And that thought struck me as a good sign~ as in, Instead of yearning 4nin KT, I was instead missing 3nin dearly~ so I'm really starting to think that this 'recharge' was a good move~ like 3nin wants to be seen as 3nin so they're giving us time to get used that idea and yearn them and only them.
So yeah, good luck to Junno. I really really really mean it.