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19 March 2016 @ 02:43 pm
Thank you, MYOJO!  
itz_menos Darling posted Nakamaru's 10,000 words Myojo 2016.03 interview ~ check tagumarulove! and be sure to leave your appreciation~ believe me, it's an awesome read!

It's such a powerful interview. So many things we can relate to and so many things he tried to convey to make us understand the pressure and the pain and the anxiety and worries, and yet that bond... complicated feelings... complicated KAT-TUN... I think he did a great job!

KAT-TUN is family
So, if KAT-TUN is a family, what is your role in it?
---- Hmm, considering my personality I wanted to be the mother but (laughs) *lol hugs him*

I said there are many relatable parts in this interview... like how fans feel. Just watching how fandoms reacted and is still reacting... watching how people who were really really active in fandom just suddenly disappared or just gradually disappeared and is disappearing... it's just like how Maru described that feeling of members leaving;

'[...]when they leave the group... it's like there's an impact that kills something inside us. It's comparable to the pain of our bodies being torn apart'.

It might sound trivial or a stupid thing to do but fandom is a great part of many people's lives. So having it taken away~ with the members leaving and now the hiatus~ can be quite a blow.

That's why, once in a while I'd have a part of me where I can't fully forgive the members who left; [...] but if I've to express it in words, it'd probably be “It can't be helped”, maybe...

And yet, because Junno is Junno, I surely can't hate him. At times I find myself suddenly angry (like when I watch SCP or Tame Tabi) - it was the same with Koki, but because Junno is Junno, I might be mad and still can't understand or support his decision but yet--- it's like what Maru said;

Of course, there's no way I hate him, but still...

I, for one, I'm still skeptical about KAT-TUN's return after a year or two. But then, following the energy/sincerity from Ueda's interview, Maru reassures me saying;

... our ten years have many turning points [...] it forges us (to be stronger)... That's why[...], if it's us, if it's KAT-TUN, I believe we can surpass it [...] there are more things that we can deliver to you.

And then what I've been feeling and what I believe many folks still feel - this question;

Knowing this much pain, does it make you regret choosing to be in KAT-TUN?
Not at all. Yeah. For me, even before debut this group is, how can I say it to express this well... A risk, saying it's just for this moment, “Perhaps it's a group that's difficult to preserve as six people”... I've had that kind of worries since then.

I think this goes back to the fact that, it's because it's KAT-TUN why people expect this sort of thing. We all hope it won't happen but at the back of our minds, deep in our hearts, this unstable KAT-TUN that no matter how strong we feel, no matter how much we say we'll trust them; - there will always be that nagging feeling of, 'these guys, even if they have good intention, they can't be trusted - but still, I can't stop myself from loving them'.

But it's the last question/answer, that almost pulled from me a legit tear. Ueda said the same thing too;

[...] If in ten years, if someone said “Let's meet up, the four of us”, will you be able to meet with a smile?
---- Yes. But, if we're meeting in ten years it would be the six of us.  Not the four of us. At that time too, we'd all have worked hard, so we would be able to meet and talk while smiling, I'm sure.

KAT-TUN is such a strange existence... but it's this reality to them that I like.
Current Mood: moving on
Current Music: yellow by coldplay
izzy and sjofn osaizzyosa75 on March 19th, 2016 01:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you for sharing the link again :). It been really interesting to read these interviews
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on March 20th, 2016 03:11 am (UTC)
No problem XD They're interesting, indeed.
crism79crism79 on March 19th, 2016 02:58 pm (UTC)
I'm really glad someone translated this one too (one left to go...). The "being ripped apart" part... it's so accurate... (I've felt it at work when a friend and team leader left our team on her own decision - I felt betrayed and torn because she was abandoning something that we had been working so hard to make it work - so I can relate fandom and workwise...*sigh*)

I really liked reading this interview. Nakamaru (to me) always looks so stoic and strong... the fact that he doesn't even remember what happened on the announcement day... I want to hug them all...

I do hope that one day (let's hope it doesn't take ten more years) that the six of them can meet up again! ^^
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on March 20th, 2016 03:16 am (UTC)
Apart from fandom, I've never experienced this except for fandom *good for me* but I can imagine RL pain is probably worse. I guess by now, you've already adjusted and gotten used to it.

Just one more left! I just hope Kame speaks straightforward without trying to sound too deep~ personally, I love that kind of talking/writing but I think some of it gets lost in translation, I sometimes feel ;/
crism79: KAT-TUN Kame & Maru laughingcrism79 on March 20th, 2016 05:41 pm (UTC)
"I guess by now, you've already adjusted and gotten used to it."

Lol, I'd love to say I have ^^' but actually haven't. I can definitely relate in some level although in a totally different scale, of course. I was angry at my friend for quite some time, but I had to accept her decision and I couldn't hate her.... so yeah...

I'm curious about Kame's interview too. Because some of the questions asked are really straight to the point, no sugar coating. Translations are always a bit subjective, because it's always an interpretation of the translator, so that can be a bit tricky. Especially when the author/interviewed is being metaphorical and too deep as you say. Just a few more days and we'll know ^^

kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on March 23rd, 2016 10:24 am (UTC)
Awww pats you. Never mind, in time you'll grow use to the new setting, even though it's upsetting now.

I retweeted bits of Kame's interview... by the same person who did Junno's. I'm not sure if it's complete and proper translation or just snippets.

Hopefully soon it will be translated and posted in one place.
crism79crism79 on March 23rd, 2016 09:31 pm (UTC)
"Awww pats you. Never mind, in time you'll grow use to the new setting, even though it's upsetting now."

^^ Thanks! This situation happened at work happened around 5/6 years ago and with that I'm totally ok now lol. What I meant when I said that I wasn't used to it, I meant that having had that happen at work it didn't help me in the least with this Junno situation ^^'

"I retweeted bits of Kame's interview... by the same person who did Junno's. I'm not sure if it's complete and proper translation or just snippets."

I saw it too. It's a rough translation from Chinese, so translation from a translation (something might be lost). I do hope someone does it directly from Japanese. But I was surprised that Kame was surprised at people's reaction to the recharge announcement... Maybe what they have in mind for recharge is different from our idea XD Felt a little more relieved in a certain way lol

I want to read it all, really hope someone posts all of it :D
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on March 26th, 2016 04:13 am (UTC)
Yeah I hope someone will take up the job for a proper translation.

But lol! now I'm surprised Kame is surprised about us being surprised. We definitely have a different idea than they do... mostly because there is the nagging feeling of doubt~ like, even if they see themselves back in a year or two, because of their track record, we're sure to doubt them.

oh well, we can't do anything but believe in them... or rather, believe in what we want.
kunai_sankunai_san on March 19th, 2016 04:55 pm (UTC)
I already finished read Nakamaru's 10k and have many undescribable feelings. But because KAT-TUN is KAT-TUN, I love them, eventhough there is many up and down in this fandom. And I think I too sympathised with Nakamaru-kun *he being my ichiban in KAT-TUN driven me to take more effort to understand him*, so I become a bit sad after reading his 10k.
But I like seeing 10k interview, it helping me to understand them better and I fell in love with Nakamaru-kun more. When I finished reading it, I really want to comfort Nakamaru-kun yet at same time I think I will speechless if I can see him directly and only will give him comfort hug.
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on March 20th, 2016 03:20 am (UTC)
Yeah Nakamaru really gave a good background in the emotion and inside workings of KT. Without even making excuses, he really tried to help us understand the complication of KAT-TUN and that even if they do have same vision and intention, there is so far they can accomplish together.

*hugs him tight too*
chiitakachie on March 19th, 2016 06:16 pm (UTC)
I like the way nakamaru answer things... he said what is on his mind and how he feels in a way that I can understand. specially his feeling about the member leaving... like I hate you but coz you're my family it can't be helped QAQ

and I really hope that kat-tun will return after their hiatus, although there's little part of me said it'll be hard. but what can I do just hoping and pray I guess hahahahaa.... somehow it's sound like nakamru's pray that kat-tun will stay as 6nin (=_=')

guess we have to wait ten years onward do the 6 of them really can meet up and talk hahahahhaa.... but I really hope it can happens.
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on March 20th, 2016 03:25 am (UTC)
If they all wish it, then I hope it doesn't take 10 years for them to meet together like that... but KT is complicated so it may even take 20yrs lol

Yeah, I really like how straightforward Maru was with his answers. He answered things in a way HYPHENS can relate to... and he answered not just the way he thinks but also with emotions. Him forgetting what happened after the announcement at Best Artist, really says how much this all frightened him... even his/their hope that Junno wouldn't leave.

But yeah, he and Ueda make me look forward to the new them after the hiatus.