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13 October 2013 @ 11:50 am
KUSABI Mini Album & OSAKA Live Concert... moving on.  
Those who know me will know that as much as I love Kame, Junno, Koki, Tatsuya and Nakamaru individually, that there's one thing I love more... KAT-TUN.

This perfection... this completeness... it's all I want... all I need.

But, it's a new week... things were done, choices have and still are being made. Many people will move on... some have already. I can't blame them. You can't blame a person for leaving fandom after all this... you can't blame a person to lose trust after all this... you can't blame a person to at times think irrationally, because as I've said before, people fight their battles their own way. And as things slowly sank in by Thursday evening, I realised that I've already accepted it. Friday, I woke up and yeah, still feeling sad because then I started to see images of 4nin KAT-TUN faces and they were the saddest faces on earth. Friday evening, I returned from work and YOSHI! my long awaited weekend to finally sort things out. First, I listened to GACKT then I watched anime, then I watched The Vampire Diaries, watched more anime, then finally, deciding that I was ready, I watched Kame's clips... Kame apologising for the trouble caused, Junno not updating his Hanashi serial, thinking about Yucchi on Shuiichi, and I was reminded why I don't like Jin. It's not because he went solo (very frankly, I'm glad he did), but it's because I saw the pain and the constant scrutiny KAT-TUN was and still is going through during that period and they are still recovering from that 'unstable' image...

and then this...

the man who promised to stay by our side til the end, made some wrong choices and now KAT-TUN as a group, and HYPHENS as fans, got pelt back to square one.

But, I can't hate Koki... I may never forgive him but I can't hate him because the guy still has a heart of gold and I honestly do believe that Koki meant every single word of kindness and encouragement he gave us. He's sincere.

And so by Saturday morning when I woke up, got dressed and stepped outside my apartment to start my day, a cool rush of autumn breeze greeted me, smack in my face, the fresh and clear scent of the changing season in my nostrils, and I smiled, feeling better already. My resolve was already made... I'll miss him, but I have to move on because there's a bigger picture here... KAT-TUN. And at first I was hoping that they would take a very long time to release anything (which I thought would have been the actual reality), but now, today, Sunday, I woke up to watch Shuiichi, and there they were... the sad faces, Tatsuya seeming like he's about to cry, Junno's smile strained and strange, Nakamaru and Kame... *sighs*, they apologised again, and then they announced 'KUSABI' as a mini album and a LIVE CONCERT in Osaka coming November and December, respectively - and I am glad they are ready to move on... because the faster they present themselves as the new KAT-TUN, then it's the faster they can start to rebuild. Again, this won't be easy... it won't be simple... there's still hurt in the pit of my stomach, but I'm the type of person who doesn't like pain... I can't stand drama... I'm not one to keep dragging the things I can't control and mope my way in this life... I'm very easygoing, I want to live a very simple and happy life and so I recover quickly, because if it means giving up someone or something no matter how great the good times lasted... then I'm going to do it because, I'm a firm believer that very surely, all things heal with time.

Arigatou and Sayounara, Koki... I wish you the best of luck, always... see you around.

...and my Dearest, KAT-TUN, I'll be here, waiting and supporting you, always!◕‿◕✿

Try and have a Happy Week!

screencap from. 2013.5.24 Hanamaru Market
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: never over by kat-tun
beatbox2991: Chainbeatbox2991 on October 13th, 2013 03:35 am (UTC)
Did you watch KAT-TUN 2013.10.13 Shuiichi, it's the most painful thing i ever watched about KAT-TUN. They need time to rest and put their emotion together in order to move on. I doubt the concert will just exhaust they more :
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 13th, 2013 04:00 am (UTC)
I did watch. and though it may seem soon, it's 2 1/2 months away. I think they want to move on...and they want to assure fans and everyone that KT will go on.

In my opinion, it's the start of a slow healing. I assume KT sees it as that too. They must have talked hard and long about it, and decided to weather the storm.
beatbox2991: kamehalfbeatbox2991 on October 13th, 2013 05:22 am (UTC)
*sigh* I really don't know what to think anymore. After watched the vid i feel more hurt than the 1st time read the news. Not sure i'm ready for a Concert DVD without Koki T-T, there r only 2 concerts with 5 of them, it's too little. The only thing i can do now is wishing the best for them, i guess.
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 13th, 2013 11:06 am (UTC)
It's okay. you won't get the dvd for now.
but taking tiny steps is the right start.

I'm sure KAT-TUN is nervous about this too, so they are taking a gamble... this is the time to reassure them that despite the fact, HYPHENS are still with them.
olimp_tenshiolimp_tenshi on October 13th, 2013 06:16 am (UTC)
To be honest, I wasn`t devastated when I heard about Koki leaving. Sad, yes, but I just kind of accepted it. But then I woke up today and saw them on Shuichi, saw Ueda who looked like he would burst in tears any moment now, the always happy Junno with a smile that didn`t reach his eyes and Maru and Kame in pain and I just snapped and started crying. I just... seeing them like that again and knowing that they`re going to have to work twice as hard just kills me.
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 13th, 2013 11:09 am (UTC)
yeah I had already cried the Wednesday and most of Thursday then it hit slowly, that it has already happened and now we can only move on. But yeah, Shuiichi really broke my heart just watching them... everything so awkward, but with these two announcements, they are trying to get through it... and they need our support... I just hope everyone of us hyphens will soon get on board, as painful as it is without Koki.
nuuufnuuuf on October 13th, 2013 08:51 am (UTC)
I cannot even reach the end of all these vids because it's just too painful seeing them like this. And Kame looks so dead tired... Guess with all of this and his work for Tokyo Bandwagon he mustn't have gotten enough sleep lately. Oh my boys.... Lemme give you a hug, it'll all be better.

And now dear managepent keep on with the fast pace, i wanna preorder that mini ASAP !
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 13th, 2013 11:10 am (UTC)
And now dear managepent keep on with the fast pace, i wanna preorder that mini ASAP !

I hope so too.

and it seems like they intend to. Junno updated his manual saying they are planning a fan event for February. They are really working hard...
nuuufnuuuf on October 14th, 2013 09:15 am (UTC)
They work hard to reassure us that they are here, so we shall work hard to show them we still treasure them !

Edited at 2013-10-14 09:17 am (UTC)
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 14th, 2013 02:38 pm (UTC)
Yeah, they seem all ready and pumped to go, so it's only right for us to support them to the end! I can't wait to see them truly happy again.
rohrfuchs: Birthrohrfuchs on October 13th, 2013 09:01 am (UTC)
I know I should be happy for them having group activities, but there is a strange feeling in me... It´s like your bestfriend is having a hard time, says sorry she/he can´t go to your birthday party and promise to go w/ u to your favourite concert next time, but all u want to say is that she/he don´t have to do that. You just want your friend be happy again.(Do u understand what I mean?)
The concert and the minialbum are like the plaster for hyphens, a compensation for the recent loss. But in such a short time? I´m so anxious about the quality of them both, seeing how full Kame´s and Maru´s schedule already is. Just please no Arashi-ish or NEWS-ish music! If it´s rock then I don´t mind the lack of rap.
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 13th, 2013 11:04 am (UTC)
Just please no Arashi-ish or NEWS-ish music! If it´s rock then I don´t mind the lack of rap.

This is the scariest part of all this for me. I never want them to change their music style just to 'fit in'. Junno can rap and he goes well with Maru too. I think they are creative enough to develop something still KAT-TUN... if not rap then something else. after all, the talented musician Ueda Tatsuya is still apart of KAT-TUN.
20102205k20102205k on October 13th, 2013 10:52 pm (UTC)
I will always support the 5 of them even if they are appart. I am waiting for their return ^^
meanwhile I can't Watch or hear their songs at 5 or 6 it's too soon for me.

Thank you as always for your wise words :)
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 14th, 2013 02:59 pm (UTC)
Hang in there *___* and hugs.
Take your time... you will feel better soon. but don't wait too long, maybe taking tiny steps with 4nin will help >
saharasnow82saharasnow82 on October 14th, 2013 02:30 am (UTC)
I would like to apologize in advance for any profanities.

I don't hate Koki either but I will be disappointed and angry for a long while. Especially after Kame's comments on Friday and Nakamaru's comments on Shuiichi. They spoke to him and he still went through with his choices to give a big middle finger to the agency.

That statement from KAT-TUN was absolutely painful to watch. Junno looked like someone was standing behind him with strings attached to his face making him smile. Nakamaru was was just on the edge. I wanted to grab Ueda and hug the hell out of him. If a tear escaped his eyes I would have been done.

Speaking of done, I could not believe how done Kame was. His eyes were so dead. His body language screamed "Get me the fuck out of here." I don't think I've ever seen him so not camera ready on camera.

On the upside we have a mini album and a couple of lives. I'm the kind of person that likes to keep moving especially after something bad happens so this is not too soon for me. Oops there goes my wallet.
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 14th, 2013 02:52 pm (UTC)
Yeah it was heartbreaking watching the guys on the verge of breaking down. For the few seconds Ueda spoke I held my breath because I was so sure I would start seeing his tears dripping, and I guess that's why he cut his talk short. Junno too... that look, I never want to see it again. Kame and Maru were just... sighs. I guess they felt all sorts of emotions, but maybe embarrassment mainly, that three years later, they had to do this again.

I'm the kind of person that likes to keep moving especially after something bad happens so this is not too soon for me. Oops there goes my wallet.

AMEN! no sense dwelling on the past... just need to move forward... and this is Junno's thoughts exactly.

and oops on the wallet... but it's ready to spend some money!!!!
jehanakamejehanakame on October 14th, 2013 06:54 am (UTC)
it really warms my heart whenever I see such post. our boys really need our supports right now. at first it's just so hard for me to believe. "it's a nightmare" "this can't be happening! not anymore!" but maybe this is just the way things are. maybe this is just bound to happen. Eventhough it's really hard to see their strained and ready to break faces, I know KAT-TUN will be able to move on. Their fast pace on releasing a new MINI ALBUM and hold a LIVE CONCERT maybe is their own way to make a reassurance that no matter what happen, we, HYPHENS will always support them.

Let's support them together.

btw, sorry for the long comment :)
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 14th, 2013 02:43 pm (UTC)
Their fast pace on releasing a new MINI ALBUM and hold a LIVE CONCERT maybe is their own way to make a reassurance that no matter what happen, we, HYPHENS will always support them.

I think so too... and I guess they really don't want to bother us more with speculations. The damage was done and they just want to hurry and try and patch things up... they really don't want us to lose faith in them so they are really trying and so should we.

Let's support them together.

*____* always!

btw, sorry for the long comment :)

No need for apology... I do like the chatting XD
effi_g: Junno 3effi_g on October 14th, 2013 02:41 pm (UTC)
Reading a post like this makes me so relieved. Pretty much all of my feelings are reflected in what you wrote just now. I already know I tend to move on pretty quick with things in life (a trait Junno nurtured and made even more powerful). So the hardest thing for me has been talking to my friends who are still grieving. I cried all Wednesday night, I went numb over Thursday, I was ready for a new day Friday. The only time since that I have had troubles was watching shuichi. The four kicked puppies were heartbreaking. But they are strong, you can see how strong they are, that they are going to push, that they are determined to show that they can still be them.

I wish them all the best, and will support them to the end ^^
Will you go to the concert?
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 14th, 2013 02:57 pm (UTC)
yeah because it's bad and heartbreaking... and pretty much a hell of a surprise but yeah... life has to go on and I hate feeling miserable... I'm not going to mourn forever. Junno is awesome! I can totally relate to this man!

I wish them all the best, and will support them to the end ^^

*________________* <33333

Will you go to the concert?
Most definitely! I hope I get some tickets. How long do you normally have to wait for NEWS' ticket info etc?
effi_g: Junno 2effi_g on October 14th, 2013 03:36 pm (UTC)
Junno really is fantastic. Did you happen to read his latest jweb entry? I respect his view on life so very much.

As far as I know the timing of ticket info varies. Some are really early and some are stupidly last minutes. I'd say they will make the application period early as possible, cause they will be unsure about numbers and such. But that's just speculation.

I'm actually a little disappointed. I will be out of the country when the cons are on so I can't go. Damn. But Junno was talking about an event after new year, so I'll sit tight and wait for that.

kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 15th, 2013 12:27 pm (UTC)
okay, kool. Thanks XD
Too bad you won't be around... wouldn't mind jumping up and down in the dome with you ^^

and yes. I read Junno's entry. I always look forward to reading them... the things he writes, calms me XD
A Katcatgirl3344 on October 14th, 2013 06:06 pm (UTC)
Just watched Shuichi. They were keeping it together- barely. Painful to watch...

Woah! Kame looked... exhausted is not the right word! Yeah, Nakamaru seemed to have very shiny eyes and Taguchi's smile seemed stuck. Ueda seemed the most composed out of them.

But I'm glad that they're already moving again. Even if it's in small steps. Ganbatte!
kissmegreen (Lyan)kissmegreen on October 15th, 2013 12:28 pm (UTC)
I'm glad that they're already moving again. Even if it's in small steps. Ganbatte!

*_____* I know right! more importantly ^^